30 September 2008.

got stung by lots of mosquito yest and today +.+
they are the most irritating species ever created !
even if u wear radioactive protective suit on ur body , they will still able to poke through and suck ur blood .
suck as much blood as u like , but dun create the itchness and bumps on my hand can =.-" i'm scratching like a dirtman who didnt have a shower for ages .
plus they disturb my most sought after activity - sleep ! after all those teaching and talking , all u want to have a nice sleep . they deny me that . those suckers . lols ...

being instructor is fun . really fun . i enjoy tekan the noobs . i even tekan one bigshot de son . lols ... shiok ar . can let me vent my frustration on them .



actually lots of things i do , are blessing in disguise .

at times when i'm instructed to do certain things that i think it's unfair to me , it turns out to be something i enjoy , even though others differ .
at times when i'm already late for some events , it actually works better than me .

so i must say , everything that comes to u , learn to enjoy becos fate brought them to u . u might not understand the reason behind now , but as time goes by dusts will settle and u will see ...

{ 9:38 PM }

28 September 2008.

the result of the first night race took everyone by surprise .

pole position massa came in last few .
starting at 15th , alonso won the race .

a great and eventful race , as there are lots of overtaking taking place and accidents occuring . never expected raikkonen to smash his car last min , and it only means my fav ferrari went home with no points at all =.= has the prancing horse gone out to have fun ? damn !

i thought the race starts at 10pm , so i went out town to makan . when clock stuck 8pm , i heard the roaring sound and i knew immediately i got the timing wrong . hurry back home and i managed to catch more than half of the race .

the first night race was bravo ! buildings around marina bay were all lighted up to satify our visual needs . i bet when the integrated resort and new financial district come out in few years time , we can easily overtake monaco and be the jewel of f1 ... =)

{ 11:13 PM }

i dun like to eat at those so called famous roti prata restaurant .

they all sux !

they became ' famous ' becos they open late into the night and night owls patronise , just like that .

2 nights , 2 different places , but same eating experience - pui ! lols .

all i can say is , good food are hard to find nowadays .

and when will my favourite teochew porridge , minced meat noodle reopen again ? ? ?

{ 1:35 PM }

24 September 2008.

not bad not bad ...
my whole company is clearing their off and leave .
only a few sway specialists like me have to go back camp and become instructors =.=

but i like the life being a part time instructor .
we just talk talk talk talk talk , the newbie just do do do do do .
they do wrong , we just tekan . they do right , credit to us becos we gave clear instructions . wahaha ...

as we are being loaned out , the lender has little control over us , the borrower tends not to control us too much . and there u have , freedom . now it's like normal office hour for me . if i want to go out back home and return only tmr , i just go . lols ...

it also keeps me busy all this while . keeping myself busy makes me happy ! i already intend to organise lots of activities from oct till year end . hope that everything goes according to my plan ...

{ 8:15 PM }

21 September 2008.

今天去唱卡拉OK 。

点的大多是男歌手的歌 ，老的到新的都有 。

还不错 。。。因为能把不开心的通通喊出来 ，差点喊到没声音 >.<



只希望接下来的几天 ，我的这场风暴会平息 。。。

{ 11:05 PM }

20 September 2008.

雨过天晴了吗 ？

我想，或许吧 。。。最起码现在我看见了曙光 。

希望这次我给自己的一剂强心针 ，能够让我战胜心魔 ！

{ 11:17 PM }

16 September 2008.

i was kind .
i agreed to let my sis bring to korea my ' half ' of the camera .
i thought she might need it more than me .

she sent an email back last week .
she said my ' half ' of the camera was stolen , so does her ' half ' .
she cant do much , becos she dunnoe the culprit .

we both sian half .
we found some reprieve , as we might be able to claim insurance
but the insurance is from aig =.=" , now we sian totally .

i have to start looking around for another camera . i hate that becos it's tiring =.=" ...

{ 10:35 PM }

14 September 2008.

think no more .
say no more .
do no more .
heart , i shall follow .



people go to casino to gamble .
people find themselves a seat , and place their money , or so called chips , on the table .
people place their bets on the game .
people play with their chance , hoping to win something back in return .
sometimes they do , sometimes they dun .

if they do , well ... good for them . they got themselves some rewards .
if they dun , it's okay . they lost only money . they can call it quits and take their leave .



put me into the above situation .
but i'm gambling on a much larger scale .
the probability of me winning , 10 percent . a mere 10 =.= !
who in the right frame of mind would carry on the game ?

the rewards are handsome , but the losses ... i dare not count . and the aftermath are set to wear me down even more .

if i withdraw , i bound to suffer becos half of my chips are already in the pot .
if i continue , god knows what will be the outcome .

the stakes are just too big . i cannot make any mistake . the outcome is irreversible .
i need some clever intervention .
drag any longer and i might suffer heart attack .
and i can feel help is on the way ...

{ 2:46 PM }

12 September 2008.

i jus got to know my work schedule up till oct .

i'm going to be ' loaned ' to training wing to become a part time instructor .

so siannzzz becos instead of having nothing to do and thwang in bunk and occasionally clearing my off day and going nights off , i need to go outfield teach new people how to operate our toy =.=" .

of all people , why me ! argh ...

people keep saying my piloting skill is very good and thats why i was selected . it can be very flattering to keep hearing that but as time goes by , stress starts to crept in .

during our final exercise , i ' buanged ' the delaunching portion .

u see , that is the amount of stress i had . i dunwan to tarnish the reputation that i've garnered so far . it can be quite demoralising ...

on the brighter side , being attached to other people can be good too .

ermmm , wait ... there isn't any bright side at all . i still need to do the regimental duties and shit work ! wth ! ! ! people will go off when i'm sweating myself ! wth ! ! ! arrrggghhh ...

it is so unfair ! ! !

i think my time will be quite dark from now onwards $%^&*()(*&^%^~!#$% ...

{ 4:34 PM }

10 September 2008.

i saw a dim light at the end of the tunnel .

hope it leads me to freedom ...



calling for a 4-day break for myself and all my khakis =) ...

{ 9:56 PM }

09 September 2008.

say hello to all my frens .

i'm now back in singapore , finally .

i had been counting down since day1 . the feeling sucks alot .



i must say that we are the fortunate lot of people . in thailand , everything is so so so ' lok kok ' . i felt as in i'm back to the 50s .

the weather were so hot , frying eggs on metal surface i think there wun be any problem . i was almost baked ! it rained almost everyday . but that was at night only =.= . cant find any respite , i can only wrap myself up , looking like a terrorist . and trust me it's much cooler that way .

night was very cooling . and when there isn't any clouds , u will be in for a surprise . i was stunned when i looked up the sky one night . it's full of stars . bright stars . it's really beautiful ! i felt as if i'm in space .

as for other events , i shall not go further . it's very repetitive .

all in all , it's an experience for me .



i'm addicted to the 2songs playing now , especially the 2nd . i've been repeating that for lots and lots of time . my mum told me it had been raining almost everyday when i'm in thailand . coincidence it might be ...

i wanted to use my time in thailand to think thoroughly . i did that . but the conclusion i got - none =.=" . i couldn't see the end of the maze . and i dunnoe when i will ...

{ 3:02 PM }