16 August 2008.

why huh ?

why why why ?

why issit so that today all of a sudden , i felt my heart miss a beat . and after that , it became very heavy ?

i saw a figure standing at a very far distance when i was on mrt . i couldn't confirm who she was but yet , this very person came right up my mind , together with the heavy heart . my vision from afar is always not very good and i hope i see the wrong person . but still , why so suddenly that i thought of her ?

why issit so that i always think the unthinkable ? last time when i had those thoughts , my brain will straight away brush them off , but why not now ?

why issit so that i bother to do all these things ? i shouldn't be the one doing . i felt like i'm now stucked in quick sand . i try to get out , yet sink deeper .

trillions of whys are flying in my head now . i need to think them out thoroughly . i need some off time ...

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