27 March 2008.

the result was out .

or rather a bombshell was dropped onto me .

i was assigned to go delta . and i'm going to thailand in august -.-" . not to see transvestites or whatever shit , but for an oversea exercise .

was very sian when the news was out becos only 20% chance to go delta and i'm so so unlucky . seeing people punching their fist in air and celebrating over their new unit is terrible . i could only look into the sky blankly and shake my head in disbelief . haizzz ...

i still haven get out of the ' emo ' state till this moment . but my mindset is changing gradually ...

" only when u had experience in staying in a house full of shit will u then truly appreciate what is beautiful . even simple things like a bowl of porridge will taste like heaven . " - i learnt this quote from sgt ong lai . and it has a far-reaching meaning for me .

my skills are only going to get better after all these shit . they only help me to improve as a soldier isn't it ? maybe aft my 2 years stint , they will give me a medal for ' best operator ' ? lols ...

and my philosophy has not changed . in whatever ways , there is no way that i can run away from my ns liability . therefore i will make the full use out of these 2 years and serve my nation , maybe not wholeheartedly , but with pride and honour .

p.s. : i want to clarify one thing . dun have the mindset that my ns is very slack - that i always get to have nites off and free time ...

people get to see me only when i'm free and slacking around , but they didnt't get to see me when i'm slogging my day out in the field and doing all sorts of tasks .

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